Uhhh those bloody Weevils they're on top of the ladder now!!!..... DANG!!!.... now we will never hear the end of it here.... Weevils this, Weevils that, Weevils for the flag..... sickening!! *sigh*.... This is only the 2nd Round, someone needs to give those Weevils a reality check!!!!
Well I did end up with three points today, leaving me with a 6-9 record for Round 2, however, many did better, so I actually dropped 7 places in our competition, down to 38 from 46 members, that is the bottom 12%. This is DEFINITELY not going to be my year, it be a miracle if I even make it into the top half, that is, 23rd or higher, let alone top 6. Uh well..... just take it week by week.....
So it seems all results today were as expected. The Puddy Cats had a good win over the Lions. Those bloody Weevils did win by a large margin but the Demons are so hopeless anyway, probably won't get far this year either. Let's see how good the Weevils will be when they play an actual TOP 8 team, they just struck it lucky with the draw so far. And well the Skippies did win as expected over the Bulldogs.
Next week the Weevils will play another bottom team, the Saints, so the delusions will continue for yet another week...... *sigh*
Sunday, 30 March 2014
Saturday, 29 March 2014
Round 2 - Should have picked the Maggies
Oh so many regrets in my life..... Entering a relationship with Barbara, getting into too much debt after breaking up with Barbara, failing to realise 15 years ago that Caroline liked me, and.... not picking the Maggies to beat Sydney!! Uh well.... that lack of a Tardis strikes again....... *sigh*
The Saints beat the Giants, so that's one close game that didn't go my way. However I did pick correctly the other close game, Port over Adelaide, only that it didn't turn out quite so close so it doesn't really count. Freo did win as expected...... and the Maggies, I guess there is life in them yet! Not gonna be like the Weevils who crows that they will finish in the Top 8 just cos they happen to win a match last week!! I still be surprised if the Maggies make it into the Top 8, but not as surprised as prior to this evening's match!!
So now with an even 3-3 record so far, not too bad I suppose, what will tomorrow bring.......
The Lions and the Puddy Cats, probably closer than what everyone expects, but I still picked the Puddy Cats.
Those bloody Weevils..... haaaa poor ole Weevils having to travel all the way to Melbourne just to play a match against the Demons..... but I suppose I should pick them since the TAB odds are short, and the TAB can't be biased cos they'd lose money if they were biased.
Last but not least..... Western Bulldogs and the Skippies.... not sure about that one, they both pretty hopeless, but I'd say the Skippies not quite so hopeless but it will depend on the mood of either team on the day.
Probably most likely to get only one pick tomorrow...... this is looking like the worst year on record.... but we shall wait and see week by week..... a top half finish is what I aim for.....
The Saints beat the Giants, so that's one close game that didn't go my way. However I did pick correctly the other close game, Port over Adelaide, only that it didn't turn out quite so close so it doesn't really count. Freo did win as expected...... and the Maggies, I guess there is life in them yet! Not gonna be like the Weevils who crows that they will finish in the Top 8 just cos they happen to win a match last week!! I still be surprised if the Maggies make it into the Top 8, but not as surprised as prior to this evening's match!!
So now with an even 3-3 record so far, not too bad I suppose, what will tomorrow bring.......
The Lions and the Puddy Cats, probably closer than what everyone expects, but I still picked the Puddy Cats.
Those bloody Weevils..... haaaa poor ole Weevils having to travel all the way to Melbourne just to play a match against the Demons..... but I suppose I should pick them since the TAB odds are short, and the TAB can't be biased cos they'd lose money if they were biased.
Last but not least..... Western Bulldogs and the Skippies.... not sure about that one, they both pretty hopeless, but I'd say the Skippies not quite so hopeless but it will depend on the mood of either team on the day.
Probably most likely to get only one pick tomorrow...... this is looking like the worst year on record.... but we shall wait and see week by week..... a top half finish is what I aim for.....
Friday, 28 March 2014
Round 2 - Is there hope yet?
Well I would not have believed it if I hadn't read it in the papers..... or online as the case may be..... but I actually managed to pick a close match! I would have liked to think the Hawks would win but knew it would be a close match with the Bombers..... and well.... the Hawks did indeed win!!!! So at this time, my success rate at picking close matches runs at 50% as expected - not counting Round 1 results cos they are so hard to pick anyway. So currently running at a reasonable 1-1....
So what will happen today..... as I attempt to look into my very cloudy crystal ball...... hmmm......
The Saints and the Giants..... that's another potentially close one, could go either way. I actually picked the Giants.... toss of the coin.... only time will tell if I made the right choice.
Next!!!.... Port Adelaide and the Crows..... rivalry here..... another close match..... one would hope that if I miss the Saints/Giants match then I may prove correct on my tip for the Powers here.
Freo and Gold Coast at Pattersons.... one would think a no brainer, should be the Dockers in a canter.... but as Mother would say, there is no certainty in football..... but going on probability theory, it's likely the Dockers will prevail.
Last but not least..... the Maggies against the Swanees in Sydney..... I would hate to say this..... but it ain't gonna be the Maggies year. It might be my year in certain other ways but none related to football..... and so I will have to pick the Swanees..... I hope I am wrong.... but I don't think I will be...... *sigh*
So what will happen today..... as I attempt to look into my very cloudy crystal ball...... hmmm......
The Saints and the Giants..... that's another potentially close one, could go either way. I actually picked the Giants.... toss of the coin.... only time will tell if I made the right choice.
Next!!!.... Port Adelaide and the Crows..... rivalry here..... another close match..... one would hope that if I miss the Saints/Giants match then I may prove correct on my tip for the Powers here.
Freo and Gold Coast at Pattersons.... one would think a no brainer, should be the Dockers in a canter.... but as Mother would say, there is no certainty in football..... but going on probability theory, it's likely the Dockers will prevail.
Last but not least..... the Maggies against the Swanees in Sydney..... I would hate to say this..... but it ain't gonna be the Maggies year. It might be my year in certain other ways but none related to football..... and so I will have to pick the Swanees..... I hope I am wrong.... but I don't think I will be...... *sigh*
Thursday, 27 March 2014
Round 2 - Oh to sing the Blues.....
Oh singing the Blues for another diabolical season ahead.... cos.... Dang!!!! I picked bloody Carlton and so of course they would get beaten!! Looks like the curse of the close matches will dog me once again, that I will lose out on the close matches by significant more than the expected 50%, it happens every season..... *sigh*.....
Anyway lets move on from that catastrophe...... to tomorrow's - Friday night's - match. The Hawks and the Bombers. That one could go either way too so early in the season. While Round 1 is almost impossible to pick, Round 2 is only slightly easier, indeed you need into at least Round 4 to be able to gauge team form. Well this is only Round 2 and it looks like I am destined to stare down the barrel of two misses in the first two match setting up a catastrophic Round 2 ensuring that I remain in the bottom 30%. Whoever I pick out of Hawthorn and Essendon, the other team will win, so I will do someone a service.... I will pick the Hawks.
Anyway lets move on from that catastrophe...... to tomorrow's - Friday night's - match. The Hawks and the Bombers. That one could go either way too so early in the season. While Round 1 is almost impossible to pick, Round 2 is only slightly easier, indeed you need into at least Round 4 to be able to gauge team form. Well this is only Round 2 and it looks like I am destined to stare down the barrel of two misses in the first two match setting up a catastrophic Round 2 ensuring that I remain in the bottom 30%. Whoever I pick out of Hawthorn and Essendon, the other team will win, so I will do someone a service.... I will pick the Hawks.
Round 2 - Worst Possible Match for first up pick!!!!
The match is more than likely in progress as I write this but I am blissfully unaware of the progress scores, having just got back from my walk and organics grocer, and not turned on TV nor any devices aside from this computer and straight to this blog. This is gonna be my habit for Thurs and Fri matches, with me going for my walk, and the time differences with the east coast where most of the matches are played......
Firstly.... my score is looking a lot better than it should. Apparently there was a computer glitch on the first weekend of Round 1 and not everyone could submit their picks, so the website, or rather the person(s) behind the website, awarded everyone 4 points regardless of whom they picked. So instead of 4-9, my score thanks to this glitch is 7-9, looks way better but EVERYONE has been given those 4 points so my relative ranking, that is a dismal bottom 30%, is still the same, due mainly to the infernal points variance!!
Anyway.....Richmond and Carlton!! This is the worst possible match to have first up with a point variance nomination attached!! This is so ANYONE's match, so evenly matched, it will literally depend on who's in the best moods for the night!! Indeed I can't even remember who I picked but won't check just yet in case I get glimpse of progress scores.... but I think I may have picked Richmond..... I do know I have given a variance of just 10 points, so if my pick is not correct then it will minimize the damage, and it is unlikely to be a one side matched, it could very well go down to the wire, especially since I think the forecast is usual Melbourne weather - rain!! Oooops I didn't say that..... here as we bask in another sunny day here! hehehe!!
We'll know later tonight how this panned out..............
Firstly.... my score is looking a lot better than it should. Apparently there was a computer glitch on the first weekend of Round 1 and not everyone could submit their picks, so the website, or rather the person(s) behind the website, awarded everyone 4 points regardless of whom they picked. So instead of 4-9, my score thanks to this glitch is 7-9, looks way better but EVERYONE has been given those 4 points so my relative ranking, that is a dismal bottom 30%, is still the same, due mainly to the infernal points variance!!
Anyway.....Richmond and Carlton!! This is the worst possible match to have first up with a point variance nomination attached!! This is so ANYONE's match, so evenly matched, it will literally depend on who's in the best moods for the night!! Indeed I can't even remember who I picked but won't check just yet in case I get glimpse of progress scores.... but I think I may have picked Richmond..... I do know I have given a variance of just 10 points, so if my pick is not correct then it will minimize the damage, and it is unlikely to be a one side matched, it could very well go down to the wire, especially since I think the forecast is usual Melbourne weather - rain!! Oooops I didn't say that..... here as we bask in another sunny day here! hehehe!!
We'll know later tonight how this panned out..............
Monday, 24 March 2014
Spiritual Experiences
Oh I finally did it!! For the first time in I guess 4 to 5 years I actually went to CHURCH!!! A Friday night meeting at "Without Walls", a Charismatic Renewal church where I had been before 4 to 5 years ago with Sally. So what's an ascending to aspiring 5D star seeded soul like me doing in such a 3D place??
Well it did earn definite brownie points with Caroline's brother! There was a message from him when I gotten back from church, and we chatted about my experiences at the church, and yes he definitely approves of me. This combined with a family crisis over the weekend, where I worked with him to help Caroline cope with it, well definitely earned lots of brownie points!! Indian families are very closely knit together. For there to be any future with an Indian lady, it is essential to get on with her family!! And this it seems am managing to achieve with Caroline's devoutly Christian family.
Ohhhh the things I do for love...... *sigh*
This is by no means the ONLY reason why I went to church last Friday, but it was certainly significant. The other significant reason being my quietly persistent little cousin - Lucinda. It mostly began at that barbecue a few weeks ago at the Dawes-Smith that I wrote about here, really the only devout Christian members of the family - well unless we also count the devoutly Catholic couple - Justin and Mandy. This was long before I knew Caroline even existed, well I knew she existed 15 years ago, but unbeknown to me at the time of that fateful barbecue, memories of Caroline was safely hidden away in the deepest recesses of my mind, destined to be spectacularly re-awakened a few weeks later!!!! It was with some form of trepidation that I had attended the barbecue, being so different to my family that I seriously considered getting a DNA test done to see if I am even related to them!!!
However it was mostly Lucinda who took the time to chat with me, and it soon became obvious that she is most devoutly Christian who attended the same church as I did a few years ago "Without Walls" and was at the same point of the spiritual pathway as I was 10 years ago - she is about 10 years my junior - so who am I to judge. But not only attend near to every meeting at Without Walls, but studying to do ministry work in prisons, and spend a lot of time helping people. And well while every Star Seed is a Light Worker, well not every Light Worker is a star seed. Many Light Workers are found in religion, though it's possible that a few of them are as yet to be awakened star seeds.
Anyway she invited me to the church.... and well to cut a long story short, by the end of the barbecue, I actually warmed to the idea of actually visiting the church, though made it clear in my mind that it will be just for a visit, not to be regularly attending church again. I am a star seed, an awakened soul headed for 5D, I surely would not have much time for such a 3D phenomenon as religion!!
And so over the next few weeks Lucinda would txt me inviting me to the church, and I'd promise I would go, but something would always crop up, and I end up not going.
Now Caroline came back into my life. 15 years ago, when I was myself a devout Christian at a Charismatic Renewal church, New Day Ministries, before I even knew about star seeds, Caroline was one of my best penfriends, herself devoutly Christian. Little did I know that she actually "liked" me back then. I thought she was just a good friend. Then we lost contact. I met Sally, married her, she got sick, my soul got awakened, discovered my star seed origins, moving towards 5D, Sally died, and spending the next 12 months grappling with life without Sally and being single again...... then Caroline finds me again, and I learned that she has been waiting for me for 15 years!!!! And this time we really fell in love. Afterall a woman who waits for me for 15 years deserves my respect and MUCH more!!!! And I found myself WANTING to go back to church. So I took up on Lucinda's invitation, and I txt her saying I WILL be there. Lucinda must have thought all her Xmases must have come at once - I FINALLY agree to attend church.
Then Friday came.... was chatting to Caroline in the morning on my phone app as I do EVERY morning... then suddenly for the first time ever my phone crashed!!! It just froze!! And being one of those new phones, as with most newer phones these days, you can't simply remove the battery, it is embedded inside the device, and there is no reset button. This is obviously designed so that you would have to take it to the shop which can only mean $$$$$ to the company. But me a stubborn Virgo there was no way I was gonna do that if I can possibly help it. The phone was frozen and the screen display was still on, so it be just a matter of time before the battery runs down. But being fully charged, it would be a while before this happens. Meanwhile I was frantic with worry about Caroline wondering what had happened to me. I was at work, so gotten on my work computer to get on FaceBook to send her a msg about what had happened - she wasn't online.
Well I managed to get a hold of her during my morning tea break via FaceBook..... so at least she knew what was going on.... but I still had no idea when the battery would run down. Since the screen was frozen, the battery indicator on the screen was also frozen. As far as I was concerned, it could be several days before the battery would run down. Nevertheless I was determined not to give any shop any of my hard earned $$$$$S's
After work the phone was still frozen, so I didn't go for my walk. I don't like to go anywhere on my own without my phone in case in any emergency I would need to contact someone. EG if the car breaks down. However I had promised Lucinda that I would be at church, so I still made plans to go to the church.
Then about an hour or so before I was due to leave for church, the phone screen went blank..... yay finally!!!! the battery run down!!!!.... So I plugged it into the charger.... and when there was sufficient charge, a few percentage, I switched it on..... and much to my relief the problem was resolved!!! I was able to use my phone again. But it would need to be charged before I can take it anywhere..... and with only an hour to go before I must be at church, I wasn't sure if there be enough charge by then.
Well just as I was finally ready to walk out the door, I checked the phone, was a little over 50% charged, so decided it was sufficient to last me through the 2 to 3 hours of the church meeting.
When I arrived at the church location, the parking lot was full...... except for one single bay..... which I took!!! I saw that as a sign that I was meant to be there. Lucinda was really pleased to see me there. It was kinda surreal being back at church, but at the same time I really enjoyed it, and being a spirit sensitive, I actually experienced some physical manifestations. Afterall spiritual phenomenon DO happen at Charismatic Renewal churches. That was why I was drawn to such churches in the first place, and even after my awakening, I continued to attend church for several years, I thought mostly to appease Sally.... and so when Sally became too sick to attend church, I saw it as an excuse to finally move on from church......
But it seems the universe had other ideas......
Star Seeds are sent to this planet for a purpose..... to raise the vibrations of this planet..... and it seems for me, a part of this is some regular involvement with the church.... to raise its vibration, or at least a few of the souls currently within the church..... afterall I guess there was a reason why I spent so many years in the church..... I thought these were wasted years..... but in the grand scheme of things, in the universal purpose, there are no "wasted years" - all things happens for a reason......
And I did share with Lucinda about Caroline, and showed her pic on my phone, and Lucinda was so pleased for me, she was so happy. Lucinda knew what I went through with Sally's death. She was the first and indeed the only family member to visit me after Sally's death.... but kept her distance the first few months, not pushing for me to attend church..... it was only after the barbecue that she was inviting me to attend church, little did she know that Caroline was destined to come into my life just a few weeks later!! None of my other family members, Debra and etc, does not know yet, and I don't plan on telling them..... say if I go to India I won't tell them until the last minute, or if she comes here, I'd just turn up on their doostep with her and they will be so shocked!!!!! hahaha!!!!!!
So I will for the time being be attending church each Friday night at Without Walls..... meanwhile, waiting for things to unfold between Caroline and me..... much still has to happen before we finally meet.... but life changing events often happens around Passover. Last year Sally's death occurred right on the Full Moon of Passover last year. This year Passover begins April 15, and well Caroline re-entered my life during this month of March. So it remains to be seen if anything happens around Passover. Life changing events happens about a month on either side of Passover - such as, starting my job in the public sector in April 1989, my trip to America in May 1998, my conversion to Christianity in May 1983, and my first visit to New Day in April 1987.
Meanwhile we having to deal with Caroline's abusive husband. This another piece of synchronicity, dealing with abuse victims. First the 8 years of hell when I was abused by Colin from age 5 through to 12, and witnessing my Mother being abused by the same creature calling himself a "man". Then Sally was abused by her 1st husband to the point that he nearly murdered her through strangulation. And now Caroline's husband abuses her on a regular basis, some of the incidences would make your hair stand on end, it is a wonder she is still alive, but she was also nearly murdered by him. Some of the abuse is worse than what Colin did to us. But due to both Indian tradition and her devoutly Christian beliefs, she remains committed to the marriage. It is only after she found me again that she now considers ending the marriage, and she seems certain the marriage would soon end. However due to Indian tradition, it is not "proper" for the woman to initiate the divorce.
Her husband is a fly-in fly-out worker, a month on an oil rig and a month off back at home. So she contacted me and our relationship blossomed during his current month on the rig. Among his acts of abuses he forces her to have abortions or would hit her in the tummy so she have miscarriages, and she had one miscarriage the previous month, which prompted her to try contact me again. In spite of this, she managed to bring two children to survival, so she does have two children - a teen girl, and a slightly younger boy. Anyway as abusive husbands goes, he spies on her, and it turned out he had planted secret apps on her phone so he could keep track of her conversations. So unbeknown to both of us, he had been keeping track of our chats on the phone. Meanwhile he visits prostitutes and sleeps with both men and woman, and he openly does so, does not try to hide it from her. The marriage is a horror story to end horror stories, this is just only skimming the surface here!!! His month on the rig is due to end this week, he is due back for the month beginning this Wednesday - ironically the day prior to the anniversary of Sally's death.
So this past weekend he phoned her revealing that he knows what is going on between us as he had been keeping track, and when he returns, hell is gonna break loose. But fortunately she has very helpful family members who likes me and wants for us to be together. Her brother is also a techie, so he was able to reformat her phone to remove the spy apps and change passwords. And she has taken her passport and some of her belongings to her brother's house. So it seems the end to the marriage is near. So we shall see how it all pans out, but his month at home includes Passover so perhaps something will happen then. She will not initiate the divorce due to her strong Christian beliefs and Indian traditions, but I think members of her family, also similarly devout Christians, are wanting for her to do so - initiate the divorce or at least the separation - they seen how close to death she had been. Either way something IS going to happen.
Here's an appropriate song for a woman who waited 15 years for me!!!!!...
Well it did earn definite brownie points with Caroline's brother! There was a message from him when I gotten back from church, and we chatted about my experiences at the church, and yes he definitely approves of me. This combined with a family crisis over the weekend, where I worked with him to help Caroline cope with it, well definitely earned lots of brownie points!! Indian families are very closely knit together. For there to be any future with an Indian lady, it is essential to get on with her family!! And this it seems am managing to achieve with Caroline's devoutly Christian family.
Ohhhh the things I do for love...... *sigh*
This is by no means the ONLY reason why I went to church last Friday, but it was certainly significant. The other significant reason being my quietly persistent little cousin - Lucinda. It mostly began at that barbecue a few weeks ago at the Dawes-Smith that I wrote about here, really the only devout Christian members of the family - well unless we also count the devoutly Catholic couple - Justin and Mandy. This was long before I knew Caroline even existed, well I knew she existed 15 years ago, but unbeknown to me at the time of that fateful barbecue, memories of Caroline was safely hidden away in the deepest recesses of my mind, destined to be spectacularly re-awakened a few weeks later!!!! It was with some form of trepidation that I had attended the barbecue, being so different to my family that I seriously considered getting a DNA test done to see if I am even related to them!!!
However it was mostly Lucinda who took the time to chat with me, and it soon became obvious that she is most devoutly Christian who attended the same church as I did a few years ago "Without Walls" and was at the same point of the spiritual pathway as I was 10 years ago - she is about 10 years my junior - so who am I to judge. But not only attend near to every meeting at Without Walls, but studying to do ministry work in prisons, and spend a lot of time helping people. And well while every Star Seed is a Light Worker, well not every Light Worker is a star seed. Many Light Workers are found in religion, though it's possible that a few of them are as yet to be awakened star seeds.
Anyway she invited me to the church.... and well to cut a long story short, by the end of the barbecue, I actually warmed to the idea of actually visiting the church, though made it clear in my mind that it will be just for a visit, not to be regularly attending church again. I am a star seed, an awakened soul headed for 5D, I surely would not have much time for such a 3D phenomenon as religion!!
And so over the next few weeks Lucinda would txt me inviting me to the church, and I'd promise I would go, but something would always crop up, and I end up not going.
Now Caroline came back into my life. 15 years ago, when I was myself a devout Christian at a Charismatic Renewal church, New Day Ministries, before I even knew about star seeds, Caroline was one of my best penfriends, herself devoutly Christian. Little did I know that she actually "liked" me back then. I thought she was just a good friend. Then we lost contact. I met Sally, married her, she got sick, my soul got awakened, discovered my star seed origins, moving towards 5D, Sally died, and spending the next 12 months grappling with life without Sally and being single again...... then Caroline finds me again, and I learned that she has been waiting for me for 15 years!!!! And this time we really fell in love. Afterall a woman who waits for me for 15 years deserves my respect and MUCH more!!!! And I found myself WANTING to go back to church. So I took up on Lucinda's invitation, and I txt her saying I WILL be there. Lucinda must have thought all her Xmases must have come at once - I FINALLY agree to attend church.
Then Friday came.... was chatting to Caroline in the morning on my phone app as I do EVERY morning... then suddenly for the first time ever my phone crashed!!! It just froze!! And being one of those new phones, as with most newer phones these days, you can't simply remove the battery, it is embedded inside the device, and there is no reset button. This is obviously designed so that you would have to take it to the shop which can only mean $$$$$ to the company. But me a stubborn Virgo there was no way I was gonna do that if I can possibly help it. The phone was frozen and the screen display was still on, so it be just a matter of time before the battery runs down. But being fully charged, it would be a while before this happens. Meanwhile I was frantic with worry about Caroline wondering what had happened to me. I was at work, so gotten on my work computer to get on FaceBook to send her a msg about what had happened - she wasn't online.
Well I managed to get a hold of her during my morning tea break via FaceBook..... so at least she knew what was going on.... but I still had no idea when the battery would run down. Since the screen was frozen, the battery indicator on the screen was also frozen. As far as I was concerned, it could be several days before the battery would run down. Nevertheless I was determined not to give any shop any of my hard earned $$$$$S's
After work the phone was still frozen, so I didn't go for my walk. I don't like to go anywhere on my own without my phone in case in any emergency I would need to contact someone. EG if the car breaks down. However I had promised Lucinda that I would be at church, so I still made plans to go to the church.
Then about an hour or so before I was due to leave for church, the phone screen went blank..... yay finally!!!! the battery run down!!!!.... So I plugged it into the charger.... and when there was sufficient charge, a few percentage, I switched it on..... and much to my relief the problem was resolved!!! I was able to use my phone again. But it would need to be charged before I can take it anywhere..... and with only an hour to go before I must be at church, I wasn't sure if there be enough charge by then.
Well just as I was finally ready to walk out the door, I checked the phone, was a little over 50% charged, so decided it was sufficient to last me through the 2 to 3 hours of the church meeting.
When I arrived at the church location, the parking lot was full...... except for one single bay..... which I took!!! I saw that as a sign that I was meant to be there. Lucinda was really pleased to see me there. It was kinda surreal being back at church, but at the same time I really enjoyed it, and being a spirit sensitive, I actually experienced some physical manifestations. Afterall spiritual phenomenon DO happen at Charismatic Renewal churches. That was why I was drawn to such churches in the first place, and even after my awakening, I continued to attend church for several years, I thought mostly to appease Sally.... and so when Sally became too sick to attend church, I saw it as an excuse to finally move on from church......
But it seems the universe had other ideas......
Star Seeds are sent to this planet for a purpose..... to raise the vibrations of this planet..... and it seems for me, a part of this is some regular involvement with the church.... to raise its vibration, or at least a few of the souls currently within the church..... afterall I guess there was a reason why I spent so many years in the church..... I thought these were wasted years..... but in the grand scheme of things, in the universal purpose, there are no "wasted years" - all things happens for a reason......
And I did share with Lucinda about Caroline, and showed her pic on my phone, and Lucinda was so pleased for me, she was so happy. Lucinda knew what I went through with Sally's death. She was the first and indeed the only family member to visit me after Sally's death.... but kept her distance the first few months, not pushing for me to attend church..... it was only after the barbecue that she was inviting me to attend church, little did she know that Caroline was destined to come into my life just a few weeks later!! None of my other family members, Debra and etc, does not know yet, and I don't plan on telling them..... say if I go to India I won't tell them until the last minute, or if she comes here, I'd just turn up on their doostep with her and they will be so shocked!!!!! hahaha!!!!!!
So I will for the time being be attending church each Friday night at Without Walls..... meanwhile, waiting for things to unfold between Caroline and me..... much still has to happen before we finally meet.... but life changing events often happens around Passover. Last year Sally's death occurred right on the Full Moon of Passover last year. This year Passover begins April 15, and well Caroline re-entered my life during this month of March. So it remains to be seen if anything happens around Passover. Life changing events happens about a month on either side of Passover - such as, starting my job in the public sector in April 1989, my trip to America in May 1998, my conversion to Christianity in May 1983, and my first visit to New Day in April 1987.
Meanwhile we having to deal with Caroline's abusive husband. This another piece of synchronicity, dealing with abuse victims. First the 8 years of hell when I was abused by Colin from age 5 through to 12, and witnessing my Mother being abused by the same creature calling himself a "man". Then Sally was abused by her 1st husband to the point that he nearly murdered her through strangulation. And now Caroline's husband abuses her on a regular basis, some of the incidences would make your hair stand on end, it is a wonder she is still alive, but she was also nearly murdered by him. Some of the abuse is worse than what Colin did to us. But due to both Indian tradition and her devoutly Christian beliefs, she remains committed to the marriage. It is only after she found me again that she now considers ending the marriage, and she seems certain the marriage would soon end. However due to Indian tradition, it is not "proper" for the woman to initiate the divorce.
Her husband is a fly-in fly-out worker, a month on an oil rig and a month off back at home. So she contacted me and our relationship blossomed during his current month on the rig. Among his acts of abuses he forces her to have abortions or would hit her in the tummy so she have miscarriages, and she had one miscarriage the previous month, which prompted her to try contact me again. In spite of this, she managed to bring two children to survival, so she does have two children - a teen girl, and a slightly younger boy. Anyway as abusive husbands goes, he spies on her, and it turned out he had planted secret apps on her phone so he could keep track of her conversations. So unbeknown to both of us, he had been keeping track of our chats on the phone. Meanwhile he visits prostitutes and sleeps with both men and woman, and he openly does so, does not try to hide it from her. The marriage is a horror story to end horror stories, this is just only skimming the surface here!!! His month on the rig is due to end this week, he is due back for the month beginning this Wednesday - ironically the day prior to the anniversary of Sally's death.
So this past weekend he phoned her revealing that he knows what is going on between us as he had been keeping track, and when he returns, hell is gonna break loose. But fortunately she has very helpful family members who likes me and wants for us to be together. Her brother is also a techie, so he was able to reformat her phone to remove the spy apps and change passwords. And she has taken her passport and some of her belongings to her brother's house. So it seems the end to the marriage is near. So we shall see how it all pans out, but his month at home includes Passover so perhaps something will happen then. She will not initiate the divorce due to her strong Christian beliefs and Indian traditions, but I think members of her family, also similarly devout Christians, are wanting for her to do so - initiate the divorce or at least the separation - they seen how close to death she had been. Either way something IS going to happen.
Here's an appropriate song for a woman who waited 15 years for me!!!!!...
Sunday, 23 March 2014
Round 1 - Those bloody Weevils
OK I knew the Weevils would win which is why I most reluctantly picked them, but now they thrashed the Bulldogs we're never going to hear the end of it now...... They're going to so rave on about those bloody Weevils, that they will make the Top 8, and even win the Premiership!! Let's get real here!!! Someone in desperate need of Weevil reality check!! The match result is NOT indicative of how "good" the Weevils are, but how utterly useless the Bulldogs are!! They won't do any good this year. THAT is why the Weevils won!!
Anyway I end up with a 4-9 result, not the required 50% needed for me to stay in the hunt for a top 6 finish therefore prize money. So the curse of Mother's death will continue, not winning any prize whatsoever since Mother's death. I am indeed ranked at 31 from the 44 members of our office competition, a catastrophic bottom 30%.
Now the catastrophe that is the 2014 season continues...... Round 2 later.....
Anyway I end up with a 4-9 result, not the required 50% needed for me to stay in the hunt for a top 6 finish therefore prize money. So the curse of Mother's death will continue, not winning any prize whatsoever since Mother's death. I am indeed ranked at 31 from the 44 members of our office competition, a catastrophic bottom 30%.
Now the catastrophe that is the 2014 season continues...... Round 2 later.....
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