The road back to at least reasonable happiness beginning when I decided to start going for my walks. I started going for walks, not because of keeping fit, but as a way of connecting with Mother. Walking was her favorite activity. She'd walk around Bibra Lakes each morning, a distance of about 7kms. Ironically the year Mother died, the lakes dried up, it was a dry as a bone, and you could walk straight across to the other side. It had since been refilled with water, it is no longer dry. But yeah, each time I go for my walk, I'd feel so alive, cos I felt that Mother was with me, it was my way of connecting with Mother.
Initially the walks were a once per week thing, just on each Saturday, I'd drive somewhere nice in nature and go for a little walk...... then the thing took a life on its own..... finding more and more spots around Perth and taking longer walks. Perth is maybe the most boring city on the planet but it does have plenty of scenic walk trails, along the rivers, the beach, King's Park, Bold Park, and other smaller parks, lakes, etc..... I downloaded an app to my phone which keeps track of my walks, the routes and the distances..... WHEN the GPS works..... the GPS doesn't always work, but it does most of the time..... and posting my exploits on Twitter and FaceBook. And soon my walking exploits evolved to a daily quest. On work days it be after work on shorter walks, either around Lake Monger or through Kings Park, but no more than about 5kms. I start work at virtually the crack of dawn, so I can leave work early and go for about an hour's walk on my way home. On weekends I go for early morning walks and for longer distances, between about 8km and 14km.
And although the walks were initially just to keep in connection with Mother, the health aspects seems to naturally evolve..... I was starting to change the way that I eat, all without any effort whatsoever. It is as if my body was leading the way, and my body seemed perfectly happy to have less or go without the foods I previously thought I couldn't live without!!! My soda (Coke) consumption went down from about 3 to 4 cans per day down to just one, maybe two if really hot, per day. I was a Coke addict, but I have no withdrawal symptoms from my 75% or so reduction in its consumption. Also less chocolates and sweets, even less fast foods, and when I do eat fast foods, it is in smaller portions. My body seems to know when to say enough is enough, and so it is effortless to keep my consumption to a minimum. I even eat less meat and more veges. I still have my pizza but even that in lesser quantities, just a 1/4 size instead of half or even a whole one when really hungry! LOL! And everyone at work noticed that I have lost weight. I don't really keep track of my weight, I really have no idea how much I weigh, but everyone at work even my boss noticed that I lost weight. So I am turning into the person I previously despised and laughed at - a fitness fanatic!! LOL!! And currently during this vacation I go for longer walks every day, even on Xmas and New Year's Day. Walking IS my vacation activity of choice, it makes me feel so alive and life worth living again!! I can understand why Mother loved her walks. It does make one's soul feel a lot better.
And now leading to other things...... I am out of the dating game completely. I resigned myself to the fact that I will forever be alone for as long as I am confined to this city. If I wanted someone, history seems destined to repeat itself, just as I had to go to America to find Sally, I will have to go overseas again to find someone!!! But I am in no hurry to find anyone. And I have long since learned that dating sites is NOT the way to go. Although there may be success stories through dating sites, these often being heavily promoted on such sites, I suspect these are very few and the exception rather than the rule, and none of them in Perth!!!! 99% of dating site members are nothing but scammers, preying on desperately lonely souls for their own evil ends, usually to scam large sums of money from you, or worse, to be targeted for more sinister ends!! If not for me being a Virgo I would have become undone and possibly six feet under!! People have been murdered as a result of contacts from dating sites. So avoid them like the plague, it is way too dangerous, and simply not worth the effort!!!!!
However I am far from lonely, though I still have my moments. Something else happened since the December Full Moon which marked the 9th month since Sally's death. Sally died on a Full Moon day, so was easy to keep track of the lunar dates - each Full Moon meant an Nth month since her death, now over 9 months, Nine months being the gestation period of humans, the 9th month seemed almost like a rebirth of something, a re-awakening!! For literally during that Full Moon period just two weeks ago, I gotten on FaceBook and joined some Star Seeds and other spiritual groups. I did share previously that I am a star seed, a human whose soul have been incarnated from other star systems. Well I mean, we have reincarnation, and often people are saying they spent past lives in some historical civilisation, such as, in the Roman Empire, or the ancient Egyptians, Mayans, etc. And some people, namely Buddhists, believes that some of us have spent past lives as critters - like a tiger, elephant, insect, or even a plant. Well I suppose the logical progression is the belief in past lives as ETs on other planets!!! Previously thought by myself to be an outrageously crazy idea, I mean, I always believed in reincarnation, but from ETs???? I thought someone had been smoking a wee bit too much weed and I am not talking about the weeds in my back garden!!! If ya catch my drift!!!! My skepticism however was short lived.... to when I decided for a laugh to take a star seed quiz.... you know, akin to the quizs you find in women's magazines, such as, what personality type you are, what lover you are most likely to have, your character traits based on sex positions preferences, and even what color undies you're likely to wear!! I used to take these quizs in my teen years when I read Mother's magazines. Well I suppose the logical progression was star seed quizs, the quiz that helps you decide whether you are a star seed or not. So I took the quiz just for a laugh, there were 100 questions..... and I scored a "yes" on 96 of them!!!!!! I think the universe was trying to tell me something!!!!.....
Well that was back in 2006, ironically when Mother was first diagnosed with the disease!! And well due to the trials of dealing with Mother's impending death followed by Sally's worsening health conditions, my progress in my self discovery as a star seed was limited, though I did manage to find out which star systems I was from, and I was actually contacted by ETs, and soon came to know my ship - the space craft which my ET kins uses to get around. But as Sally's condition grew worse, my progress in my spiritual development stagnated. Only that I would no longer be involved with the church, cos the church deserted us when Sally got sick, they made no effort whatsoever to contact us, they never offered us help, never heard boo from them!!!! So that I decided, that if or when Sally get better - or she dies - I would not be going back to church.
So anyway..... nine months of getting used to life without Sally, dealing with issues, house, money, failed dating attempts, etc, etc...... until two weeks ago. And well, in the two weeks I have been on these FaceBook groups I have made some wonderful friends, the best friends I had for a long time, all just as off-the-wall, off-the-planet, and with as many screws loose as me!!! LOL!!!! But of course, utterly zilch, zit, nyet, none in Perth!!! Why should I be surprised!! *sigh* All of the Australian members, indeed my Australian friends are all on the east coast..... and the rest overseas, mostly Europe and The States. Uh well..... perhaps history is about to repeat itself..... Like back in the 1990s I was on these Christian Revival sites, and back in those days it was email discussion groups - there was no such creature as FaceBook, Twitter or Instagram back in those days!! So it were email discussion groups, participating in discussions via email through a central server - uhhhh how very 1990's was that!! LOL!! So back then had made wonderful friends through these discussion groups, was not romantically involved with anyone, just really good and wonderful friends..... still the same problem of none of them being in Perth!! LOL!!.... and one of them was Sally.... just a pretty good friend!! And then I went to America to meet these friends, Sally was on my itinerary and well as they say, the rest is history!!!!
Maybe perhaps history will repeat..... just a bit updated..... now on FaceBook groups, different kind of spirituality, making really good and wonderful friends, just no romantic involvements....... hmmmmm..... what if an opportunity came up for me to visit America again, it would take a miracle, but then my previous trip to America was a miracle, from money I didn't know I had until someone out of the blue pointed it out to me and helped me acquire the money, so was able to go to America....... So what if something similar happens this time..... I visit America, meet some of my star seed friends..... and fall in love with one of them!!!!! hmmmmm......
Well whatever..... I am currently having a great time on these groups..... with people of the same interest..... and to an outsider it would seem utterly crazy on the things we share, they'd be calling for nice men in their nice white coats to take us away!!!!...... when we discuss on topics like we're discussing about what was on TV or what we had for dinner last night.... such topics as, which star system we were from.... some says the Pleiades, others the Andromeda Galaxy, Sirius, Alpha Centuari, Vega, Orion, Zeta Reticuli, and the other endless number of star systems around..... there are as many star origins as there are ethnic groups on planet Earth!!!! And of course there are the "mixed races", those from many star systems, me being one of them - I am on a galactic level very multicultural - being from the Andromeda Galaxy, Pleiades, Sirius, Orion, and Planet Mars, just to mention a few. And well what happens next, well what will happen will happen..... meanwhile I am just enjoying the ride and discovering lots more about myself! ;)..... even more weird than first thought!! hehe!! haha!!
Another thing, I started to use my "legal" or earth name again on my FaceBook account, for the first time since the days of the email discussion groups back in the 1990s. The main reason being that I was hoping that any of my long lost friends from school or even relatives finds me and sends me an add request. Afterall Sally have managed to attract some of her long lost friends and even some relatives from the "M" side of our family, apparently living on the east coast. I don't know who they are, I do have access to Sally's FaceBook account, it is still active, but just haven't gotten around to perusing her friends list for these "rellies" yet. It was easy to gain access to her account after her death, all I needed was access to her email addy. And since she was using her iinet emails, these simply were transferred to my name once I given iinet Sally's death certificate. Then it was a simple case of snagging the password from FaceBook, and so gotten access to her profile. Since then I had been intending to try find these relatives, but simply hadn't gotten around to it. I just log in on occasion to see what her Christian friends are getting up to - for some of them, not good, considering they are supposed to be devout Christians. But then Christians are way over represented in "adultery" statistics - on a per capita basis, adultery among Christians are of a higher proportion than among us "heathens" LOL!! This proves that prohibition simply does not work! Well the gangster era during the "Prohibition Era" is proof of that. The same applies for drugs today. If one prohibits something, it just makes is more determined to get the thing that is prohibited. Just the nature of the beasty that is human nature. We want something more if it is seen as taboo, prohibited, or bad for you. Hence the so called "junk foods", chocolates, etc..... it is rammed down our throats that these foods are "bad" for us, so people eat more of them, fast food joints are one of the few businesses that is recession proof!! People want more of it cos everyone is saying it is "bad" for us. So back to the issue of "adultery", it is forever treated as a "taboo" subject in Christianity, and regarded as one of the worst sins. So guess what?? Christians are wanting to experience it more!!! Even pastors and high profile Christian musicians and other Christian famous people!! Adultery is an absolute epidemic in the Christian world. Meanwhile us "heathens", well still not exactly seen as desirable, but we are far more relaxed about it, and indeed, more and more of us are saying it is actually a good thing to "stray" in a marriage and to have more than one partner. Therefore, ironically, it is not quite so much of a plague among us. It still happens, and still happens quite a lot, but is it not so much of a big deal, and so really it doesn't happen as much among us as it does among Christians. Indeed it seems such an irony that in the Pagan and New Age world (eg starseeds) there are actually a lot more stable and faithful marriages than in the Christian world, but then, we don't see Pagans forever preaching against "adultery". Pagans tends to take a more positive approach to things rather than the "thou shalt nots" of the Christian world..... anyway..... meanwhile back at the ranch......
Uh yes.... Sally's FaceBook account, and use of my earth (legal) name on my account. I was also hoping to attract long lost friends and rellies..... but then if any of then did come across my profile and see all the star seed stuff on it, I think they will run the other way!! LOL!!! I did have one long lost friend sending me an add request, an old penpal from my teen years on the east coast!! Granted that she did come along BEFORE I joined these star seeds groups. But much to her credit, she is still on my profile, and we still communicate with each other!!! If only FaceBook was around back in my teen years, but then Mother was so strict with things that I probably would not have been able to use it! LOL!! Anyway still ever hopeful that another long lost friend would think to enter my surname into the FaceBook search facility and comes up with my profile..... though my current focus is the star seeds groups ;) Debra knows of my FaceBook profile and she also has a profile, but she is not on my friends list, and though she hasn't said anything to me, she probably be thinking..... Uhhhh so typical of my brother, a nutcase as he always has been...... hahaha..... I don't plan on changing my Twitter and Instagram profiles to give my earth name, but then both are linked to FaceBook so anyone who wants to could find it anyway.
And speaking of spirituality and self discovery..... well I haven't been to the Freo markets yet.... that is planned for this weekend, since I think the markets are open only on weekends. There to spend my $100 cash that I gotten for Xmas, finding some more crystals and/or other artifacts of spiritual significance, such as the pentagram. I wonder if there be a star seeds group there, or at least something about UFOs and ETs..... well just wait and see what I can find when I get there, likely to be on Sunday.
My new TV courtesy partly of the gift card I gotten for Xmas. It had arrived already, indeed it was very quick, took only two business days! But then it probably cos it was already in a Perth warehouse so just needed to transport it across town. This is unlike my Pagan calendar which was dispatched from America now about FIVE weeks ago and it STILL haven't arrived!! Had this same problem last year. Indeed it is a problem I ALWAYS have on items out of town, whether it be from the east coast or overseas. It ALWAYS arrives late in Perth. If it was an east coast city, this wouldn't be a problem. If in Melbourne or Sydney for example, I would have had the calendar two weeks ago!!! But no..... because of what must have been some heinous sin I committed in a past life, I end up in very isolated Perth where everything arrives late or on occasion not at all!!!! I think last year I didn't get it until the SECOND week of January which was SIX weeks after it was dispatched from America. So typical of Perth!!!!
But back to the TV, it arrived early, cos I suspect it was already available locally. And it is very nice!! The contrast between the TV and my current PC monitor is so extraordinary. I didn't realise the dull and low quality picture that I have on my now rather ancient monitor, well I did have it for a while, since BEFORE Sally gotten sick - I could never afford anything while Sally was sick. But the differences in quality is so striking, that when I am not watching TV I actually use it as my primary monitor. I have both the monitor and TV attached to my PC serving as a double display, so for example, can have a website displayed on one, and watching a YouTube video on the other. But not only the TV is slightly bigger than my monitor, the picture quality and brightness just has no comparison!! It is vastly superior!! So now I want a new PC monitor!!!! Well if nothing major comes up, I should be able to acquire a new monitor in the next month or so. Meanwhile I am yet to figure out how to use the record function and various other features on my TV. I can plug in my flash drive and the TV shows gets recorded onto it. But I'm in no hurry to learn about these features. Such decent shows as The Originals and American Horror Story are still three weeks away from starting up again, and at this time the TV programming are most decidedly dull and boring - aside from the odd decent doco or perhaps a concert or two - but the shows themselves are most decidedly obvious that we are not in the ratings period!!! If ya get my drift!! So most of the time it is being used as a 2nd monitor.
Now my Greenie credentials LOL.... me being a frustrated hippie! LOL!!.... actually the star seed thingy actually started in the hippie era, and back in those days they DID take drugs to gain spiritual experiences and insights!!! Actually it does work that way. The idea of taking drugs, or smoking weeds, or other things banned by the govt, well it has the effect of shutting down the analytical part of the mind, so allowing the deeper subconscious part of the mind to come to the surface, hence the hallucinations and etc. But also, the subconscious mind is more open to spiritual influences, such as, ET contacts which was not necessarily just hallucinatory!! LOL!! So indeed a lot of the spiritual insights gained through the hippie era was from the result of drug effects!! These days, we figured out other techniques of opening up the subconscious mind without drugs, though to be sure, some of us still uses drugs, smoke weed, etc..... but not me!! I don't need it, I am crazy enough as it is to tap into the spiritual realm!! hehehe!!! But yes definitely a frustrated hippie!! hahaha!!.... and so my Greenie credentials ;)..... I have already joined the Wilderness Society, donating $25/mth, and keeping track of their campaigns through their FaceBook page. Next on my list is the Sea Shepherd. That organisation is very close to my heart! I mean, anyone who sacrifices so much to save my star kins (the whales and dolphins) is my hero!! So this month I will be signing up for the Sea Shepherd. If not for them, those infernal Japs would be killing a lot more whales than they currently are getting away with. And to me, those whales are like my soul brothers and sisters, indeed they ARE my soul kins - the souls of those critters are Sirian and Pleiadean. The dolphin-like Nommos race in the Sirius star system, and other similar-type races within the Pleiades system. And me being Pleiadean, I would have been one of those ETs. That is why I feel so closely connected with them, they are literally my soul siblings. So yes Sea Shepherd will definitely be getting my support, not just morally as currently is, following them on FaceBook and "sharing" them on my profile, as well as Twitter and Instagram, but also financially. It is part of my calling. Some may be called to, say, Save the Children, or World Vision, etc.... but MY particular calling is environmental, especially the Cetaceans - whales and dolphins. It is a part of who I am. Not everyone can support every cause on earth, indeed, no one can support every cause on earth. But collectively between different souls of higher vibrations, each of us supporting particular causes according to one's particular calling, all add to the greater picture - together raising the vibrations of this planet.
Anyway I waffled on enough for now..... uhhhhh now this week's vid..... oh let's have some ABBA since Mother's maiden name is apparently Swedish to the point that there is actually a town in Sweden bearing that same name..... probably why I liked ABBA so much prior to becoming a metal head! LOL!..... so here's the original song that first got me interested in ABBA, ironically referring to Mothers...... BTW the red hair is sexier, I think blondes are way over rated..... ;) hehe....
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